I was just, stumbling around. Caught in my own thoughts, enmeshed in my own understandings. I went on. Head bowed as if I had no curiosity of where I was going. Wearing a big coat and my black trousers. Walking on a deserted road. Night illuminated dimly by the yellow street lights. Such a serene atmosphere. Such an innocent environment…
I am afraid. Afraid to get closer to anybody. Afraid to let open those parts that try to eat me up inside.. scared that again I’ll be proved wrong. This time I might not be strong enough. I am terrified to introduce my friends around. One mistake. My chain breaks..
No. Wait. Stop. I stop in that quiet street and think at the thought. When will I have a life of my own? I have it already dammit! I have a better one. I am a better person. I know better people. So what if life’s not a lot of what I wanted and had? So what? Huh, so what!?
I kick the pebbles out of my way and lift my head. The street is all lighted. I have a long way to go ahead. Hands deep in my pocket, I smile inwardly. I know he has been following me. I slow my pace so he catches me now. Jacob comes and pokes me in my ribs
Gotcha
Is that a FB poke or a real poke? lol
What’s fb?
=P
Oh, it’s some Zombie lingo lol thought u would know, my mistake … :P
(who told you I was a zombie!)
Well. Not my dialect then =)
A raven told me. I should have listened to the little birdie :)
No man.. A genuine poke =) Elbowing as we call it
that sounds fun, woman :P …
Your mystery friends arouse my sherlok-holmes-instincts……if u know what i mean :p
Hope they don’t start stalking yer =p
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So what I’m going through nowadays!