Balderdash Thoughts

Prayer for tonight

I have a very heavy heart today. Right now, as I sit by my window and the wind blows through my incredibly wet hair, I feel a burden weighing me down. What do I tell you? I have no words you haven't heard before.   Sometimes, the only way to move forward is to kill… Continue reading Prayer for tonight

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Balderdash Thoughts, Incidents

“It was not so much that he was shut out, but that she was trapped inside”

SO my friend sends me sends me an audio message this morning about how de-sensitized he thinks he has become for a period of time, how disconnected from everything and distant from everyone. I listen to the message, my upper lip curls and look around for a while. I don't remember the last time I… Continue reading “It was not so much that he was shut out, but that she was trapped inside”

Curriculum Vitae

All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost;

All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; Renewed shall be blade that was broken, The crownless again… Continue reading All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost;

Balderdash Thoughts, Incidents

There are too many books I haven’t read, too many places I haven’t seen, too many memories I haven’t kept long enough

I was brushing my teeth the other day, looking in that foggy, droplet-stained mirror so early in the morning when the pictures started to move in my head so thick and fast. Childhood. I don't care about that era, just like I don't care about the teens that passed. I don't even remember being a… Continue reading There are too many books I haven’t read, too many places I haven’t seen, too many memories I haven’t kept long enough

30th Novembers

30th November (III)

I like testing people. I do it all the time. Everyday. Every other moment. Sometimes its obvious. Sometimes it's subtle. Sometimes I get them to fail, no matter what. My test, My rules. It's a crazy world up in my head. Why ramble on into a huge story of what happened or what didn't? It… Continue reading 30th November (III)

30th Novembers

30th November (II)

I gotta write this at sometime and it has been days. Well. Yes. Birthday hit on 30th November, my second day back college. Exactly the way it happened last year. Blah It was the worst birthday ever. I am not going into the details but yeah, almost every one of my friends didn't remember. Those… Continue reading 30th November (II)

Balderdash Thoughts

Good old Stephanie

You guys remember Stephanie? My lovely old neighbor... I am sitting in her brand new home and brand new elite class bedroom and she is pouring herself in me.. all the good old stuff.. her new friends and everything.. I really miss her.. Today I miss everything And I am not going to pretend I am… Continue reading Good old Stephanie

Few words to say

“There is a time for departure even when there’s no certain place to go.”

Before you know things change, before you understand it your whole outlook changes. Let it be times, let it be the tides. But words and situations sink in and suddenly you laugh less, you talk less. You start eating slowly. You start smiling less. Your eyes don't have that shine anymore. Your words don't have… Continue reading “There is a time for departure even when there’s no certain place to go.”

Balderdash Thoughts

“Why trying so hard to fit in, when you’re born to stand out”

Well. Mom's not home today. She had to go somewhere and I am stuck alone. Never mind..never mind So I am sitting in the room, with books all around me, begging me to open them. If you are quiet you can almost hear their tiny pleas. I am kind of lying in the sofa, with… Continue reading “Why trying so hard to fit in, when you’re born to stand out”