Balderdash Thoughts, Incidents

“It was not so much that he was shut out, but that she was trapped inside”

SO my friend sends me sends me an audio message this morning about how de-sensitized he thinks he has become for a period of time, how disconnected from everything and distant from everyone. I listen to the message, my upper lip curls and look around for a while. I don't remember the last time I… Continue reading “It was not so much that he was shut out, but that she was trapped inside”

Balderdash Thoughts

Relieved is a strange thing to say – you really don’t feel that.

I am sitting on the stairs at my Uncle's huge place. Feeling the light coming through the glass pane windows. I like it here. The damp smell, the empty house. Mom's out. Sometimes I wish she didn't have to do all the chores and I could do it for her but then.. we are two distant… Continue reading Relieved is a strange thing to say – you really don’t feel that.

Balderdash Thoughts, Medicine: Year 2

For what is it to die, But to stand in the sun and melt into the wind?

Apple green and light blue. Simple colours that light me up. Brown wet hair blowing dry in winds and that sun warming everything up. It's Sunday. That ball of light was up. I watched it the whole day, until it sank behind the trees I am not friends with Sometimes, everything seems oddly at peace.… Continue reading For what is it to die, But to stand in the sun and melt into the wind?