Balderdash Thoughts

I am not allowed to be afraid.

I have written about my heart being heavy, I have written about it being broken. I have written about being happy, I have written about being content. For anyone who ever cared and to whomsoever it ever concerened...I have written it all. And then I stopped, for I had no new feelings to talk about,… Continue reading I am not allowed to be afraid.

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Balderdash Thoughts

Here’s to me. Here’s to you

The world is just..too big sometimes. When I stand in the dissection hall filled with fervent and anxious people about to have a nice dose of the examiners in sub-stage... I feel... drained.. as if the energy leaks out from unknown pores.. or holes I don't know.. All I want is to just stay far… Continue reading Here’s to me. Here’s to you

Medicine: Year 1

It’s better to burn out than fade away

Ok. I and a bunch of friends got kicked out because we were late for a lecture (but no we actually went on a detour from canteen through the grounds in to the basement =D) not kicked out.. we didn't go in after we saw the self study class filled with my crazy theetha batch… Continue reading It’s better to burn out than fade away

Incidents

In the corner, into night

(I found this in a lost folder in my computer, I guess I wrote at night after some party or wedding ceremony) There always are these eerie feelings. They have been there. And they shall remain And I sit here. Again. As the slightest of the prick finally blows me apart. Again. Been fighting all day.… Continue reading In the corner, into night

Incidents

Yeah, I am busting and you want me to add a title

You see I am just staring. Just staring at the screen. Pausing after typing every second word. Fighting off all that is boiling to just burst its way out of me. Biting back my tongue and breathing deep, just enough to evade an anger attack. I have said this before. Don't piss me don't offend… Continue reading Yeah, I am busting and you want me to add a title

Balderdash Thoughts

It is just one of those thoughts I have

I can't come up with a story. I am far too drained and tired. Brain is cracking. Hands are limp. Not dead neither dying. State of pure tiredness. And will transform into the State of Nothingness soon. It's good. Helps body heal. Muscles readjust. Bones breathe I am not going to tell the story of how… Continue reading It is just one of those thoughts I have

Balderdash Thoughts

Definition of Balderdash, At your service

Oh I've got nothing to say Nothing at all Then why am I typing.. Nobody out there is waiting to read the crap I put here Yes. I am disgruntled because I am helpless. Annoyed because I am disappointed. Irritated because I have nothing to say. Nothing to do. I should rename the blog from… Continue reading Definition of Balderdash, At your service

Balderdash Thoughts

I’m not crazy, my reality is just different than yours

It's the stupid feeling when you look at yourself and feel that how stupid you are being, how melodramatic and so absolutely obvious. I am saying this because I am feeling optimistic, I am saying this because I just rinsed my face with ice-cold water and feel new. I am saying this because I know… Continue reading I’m not crazy, my reality is just different than yours