I spent an hour writing..everything. Pouring my anger into my laptop and editing it and constructing all those sentences and blah blah blah blah and a second before I was going to hit send.. I just stopped. Not today. Not now. Have you ever felt so consumed with anger and hatred and total helplessness that… Continue reading Better left unsaid, better left unfelt
Stood watching that blank paper With girls screaming outside Happiness, glee or madness Nor I nor They could decide While talks went loud and long A word my pen didn't say They laughed themselves into oblivion And I tore my paper away
I don't see them and yet the energies pass right through my body. They drain me, they make my mind leak. I can stand among a thousand people, attend classes with a dozen more and yet that shield of repulsiveness around me never fails to break. The few friends I have are the ones that… Continue reading There’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold And she’s buying a stairway to heaven
It took a while to understand And a while to know The road I went on Was never mine to go It took a while to look And a while to see The person you just buried Was someone I used to be I went on this path With a flower held to heart The… Continue reading Now, but never again
Have to type down the thoughts before the winds blow the composition away. Before the head drops down and the heart beat falters. Before the words fail me and the fate disappoints me. Gotta write it down, gotta pen it away. When I am satisfied and content, my heart soars into the skies and brushes… Continue reading Born alone die alone.. classic human tragedy
I cannot put emotions into words until I don't feel them, I cannot smile when the happiness is shallow, tears don't fall unless pain penetrates and the turmoil doesn't shred till the soul is bared... ah.. not till the soul is bared You see me now, dressed in purple and black. Two very conflicting colours… Continue reading It’s just one of those feelings I have..
(I found this in a lost folder in my computer, I guess I wrote at night after some party or wedding ceremony) There always are these eerie feelings. They have been there. And they shall remain And I sit here. Again. As the slightest of the prick finally blows me apart. Again. Been fighting all day.… Continue reading In the corner, into night
I can't come up with a story. I am far too drained and tired. Brain is cracking. Hands are limp. Not dead neither dying. State of pure tiredness. And will transform into the State of Nothingness soon. It's good. Helps body heal. Muscles readjust. Bones breathe I am not going to tell the story of how… Continue reading It is just one of those thoughts I have
It is a strange day. It is a stranger me. The thoughts, the feelings the perceptions are all new.. And all so strange. I lie here, oh yes I do. On a soft bed under a soft quilt. Head resting on a soft pillow. Every part of my body pains. There are places of unknown… Continue reading A thing is not necessarily true because a man dies for it
At last I got a moment for myself, cousins working on their tests. Mom and the rest out for dinner and I with a borrowed usb. I was jumping, bobbing up and down on my heels. A long travel tale already formulated in my mind. Buzzed my pc start, hit the e-mails. One glance, there… Continue reading A bubble went pop..