Balderdash Thoughts, Medicine: Year 4

Better left unsaid, better left unfelt

I spent an hour writing..everything. Pouring my anger into my laptop and editing it and constructing all those sentences and blah blah blah blah and a second before I was going to hit send.. I just stopped. Not today. Not now. Have you ever felt so consumed with anger and hatred and total helplessness that… Continue reading Better left unsaid, better left unfelt

Medicine: Year 3

There’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold And she’s buying a stairway to heaven

I don't see them and yet the energies pass right through my body. They drain me, they make my mind leak. I can stand among a thousand people, attend classes with a dozen more and yet that shield of repulsiveness around me never fails to break. The few friends I have are the ones that… Continue reading There’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold And she’s buying a stairway to heaven

Balderdash Thoughts, Medicine: Year 1

Born alone die alone.. classic human tragedy

Have to type down the thoughts before the winds blow the composition away. Before the head drops down and the heart beat falters. Before the words fail me and the fate disappoints me. Gotta write it down, gotta pen it away. When I am satisfied and content, my heart soars into the skies and brushes… Continue reading Born alone die alone.. classic human tragedy

Balderdash Thoughts

It’s just one of those feelings I have..

I cannot put emotions into words until I don't feel them, I cannot smile when the happiness is shallow, tears don't fall unless pain penetrates and the turmoil doesn't shred till the soul is bared... ah.. not till the soul is bared You see me now, dressed in purple and black. Two very conflicting colours… Continue reading It’s just one of those feelings I have..

Incidents

In the corner, into night

(I found this in a lost folder in my computer, I guess I wrote at night after some party or wedding ceremony) There always are these eerie feelings. They have been there. And they shall remain And I sit here. Again. As the slightest of the prick finally blows me apart. Again. Been fighting all day.… Continue reading In the corner, into night

Balderdash Thoughts

It is just one of those thoughts I have

I can't come up with a story. I am far too drained and tired. Brain is cracking. Hands are limp. Not dead neither dying. State of pure tiredness. And will transform into the State of Nothingness soon. It's good. Helps body heal. Muscles readjust. Bones breathe I am not going to tell the story of how… Continue reading It is just one of those thoughts I have

Short Stories

A thing is not necessarily true because a man dies for it

It is a strange day. It is a stranger me. The thoughts, the feelings the perceptions are all new.. And all so strange. I lie here, oh yes I do. On a soft bed under a soft quilt. Head resting on a soft pillow. Every part of my body pains. There are places of unknown… Continue reading A thing is not necessarily true because a man dies for it